4. Grace

I have always wanted and desired you
In these moments far too close and far too long
You’re the one sublime, the one admired, who’s
Unafraid to stand beside me strong

Always just that little step before me
The brightness that I’ve never ever kissed
Imagined tough but with a gentle glory
The one that I’ve always always always missed

And she is mother to my never children
The grand inspirer of the killer song
Listener pure and sure and voice unbidden
Forgiver ever of my stupid wrong

Under moonlight I believed I’d find her
For she’s shining bright amongst the morning dew
In this ageing mind I need reminders
A memory of a laughing sparkling you

All those years ago warm and befriended
I’ve held your image sacred down the years
All untouched unseen undone unended
A grace for whom I’m still shedding tears