11. When did I choose?

When did I choose to be this way?
To look, to speak like this?
When did I decide one far off day
To live, to think like this?
And yet forget to love?

Were I to take stock
Now arrived in this position
And try to unlock
Each little decision?
Would I still know?
Could I bring to mention?
Would it have changed
With a woman's intervention?

Were I to look now
With new romantic vision?
Try to find how
I make the first incision
Would I conclude
That my own abstention
Would have been changed
By a woman's intervention?

When did I forge this state of mind
To see, to believe like this?
When did I decide one far off day
To stay, to pray like this?
And yet forget to love?